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lethologica, (n.); it's on the tip of my tongue.
frankly, i don't know what i'm writing anymore.
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I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT I JUST WANT TO KEEP YOU FOREVER BUT I DON’T EVEN DESERVE YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE TOO GOOD FOR ME AND YOU PUT UP WITH MY PETTY PROBLEMS LIKE GRADES AND NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH AND NOT HAVING ENOUGH CLOTHES OR SOME SHIT WHILE EVERY DAY YOU APPARENTLY STRUGGLE WITH DEALING WITH THE TEMPTATION TO CUT OR KILL YOURSELF AND I THOUGHT I WAS STRONG BUT I WAS WRONG I WAS WRONG I WAS WRONG I KEEP CRYING AND CRYING AND CRYING BUT THAT’S NOT GOING TO MAKE YOU MINE OR MAKE ME WORTHY OF YOU BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I DON’T LIKE SEEING YOU LIKE THIS AND I DON’T WANT YOU TO GO BUT I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING’S JUST SLIPPING OUT OF MY HANDS AND I FEEL LIKE I’VE LET YOU GO AND I DON’T WANT YOU TO GO BECAUSE I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH AND EVERY PLACE WITHOUT YOU IS HELL AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN MY OWN CIRCLE OF HEAVEN DISSIPATES INTO THIN AIR WHEN YOU BECOME JUST A SPECK IN THE GALAXY WHEN YOUR SOUL JUST WANDERS OFF INTO SOME PLACE IN THE AFTERLIFE I WON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE WHEN YOU’RE GONE AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING BUT YOU’RE TOO UNATTAINABLE FOR ME AND YOU’RE TOO OUT OF MY LEAGUE AND YOU’RE TOO GOOD FOR ME AND YOU LOVED ME BACK AND I THOUGHT MY BREAKDOWNS WERE BAD WHEN I CRIED AND YELLED AND CRIED AND YELLED AND CRIED AND YELLED FOR YOU TO STAY STAY STAY BUT NONE OF THAT IS GOING TO FIX ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU SELF HARM AND YOU TORTURE YOURSELF AND YOU NEVER FEEL WELL AND YOU HIDE IT ALL IN AND I KNOW NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING AND THERE ARE TIMES WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO END YOUR LIFE I KNOW IT I KNOW IT I KNOW IT AND I CRY SO MUCH BECAUSE I KNOW I WAS NEVER ENOUGH TO KEEP YOU ALIVE BUT THAT’S ONLY BECAUSE I WAS NEVER GOOD FOR YOU I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU I WAS NEVER ENOUGH TO KEEP YOU ALIVE BUT YOU LOVED ME ANYWAY AND ALL THIS IS MAKING MY HEAD SPIN AND MY EYES PUFF UP AND MY FACE RED BUT I DON’T CARE BECAUSE ALL I CAN THINK IS I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

AND IT HURTS BUT IF THAT’S WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE THEN LET’S GET HURT TOGETHER, DARLING.

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for someone who tries to stay so positive i get a lot of shit
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